Boost my confidence! (of sorts?)

(I like plants) (LoL) OK I'm feeling better =^.^=

Traped

   I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm scared! Why must I feel like this even when I have no reason to be? My life is good, people are good, but I'm scared! I want to cry and break down but I can't. I post things like this only because I don't believe anyone will understand why or know my thoughts but I still keep this blog open for people because of my fantasies!... Because I know I am getting depressed to calm down I am going to post pictures.(I am a anime fan)

This isn't helping, I'm starting a new post.

For some reason I really wants to have some pic of locked hearts but I think I went over board...

What to do...

   I am extremely happy! I know I should be worried about finals and I am but the days just seem more calm and relaxing as summer comes closer. I love school and the people in it making me wish the year is not ending (school year not real year) but the summers couldn't be shorter too.
   My favorite part of summer is that I get to sleep in, go to the library, and go to the park to explore! I don't really know what to do about my birthday thought, that is the point of the tittle, I have gone to park for my birthday twice so I am kinda confused on what I want to do.

If a tree falls in the woods and you dont hear it does it fall?

   Everything causes a chain reaction, even if it's just one tree falling in the middle of the forest. We only see whats falling right in front of us, THAT EFFECTS US... but not others. We think of the loved ones we lost because of someone and want revenge on them but not think of the other side and think of the people they lost because of us. It's all just a vicious cycle that will never stop- just grow.


Who am I that stands tall in the forest?
                                      Just another tree living on,
                                                    Just another tree about to fall.

Jumbled Thoughts

   I can't think... I want to write but I cant, I have no inspiring ideas or images in my head. I've had a good week but my mind is either blank or to full to think so I'll just post a picture.

Escaping

   People are annoying. You trust them with all your heart and they betray you. I don't talk to people often but the friends I do have have been betrayed so often they are breaking inside and the only people they can talk to are their best friends and me. Every time they talk to me I hurt and wonder how can they trust people over and over again? I want to go away from everybody, have a break from their pain but if I do I'll feel even lonelier then I do. Someone find me. Accept me for who I am.

I'm Tired

   I tend to make friends with people who need help. No one understands them except for them. And me. But maybe I'm like them. If I try to ease their pains then it ease's mine but when they give up I feel like the one falling into a deep, dark pit because I have failed to support them. I'm tired of people giving up... I'm tired of it..

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Founding Wisdom

   Many things have happen. Things that I should posted but never did. My family has had many problems but they have gone on for so long that I feel nothing, even when my mother got in a car accident I felt a little surprised but that was all, I didn't even know how to respond to my aunt so I just left for school. If you ever feel like this know that it is only on the surface because no matter how small you still have a panic attack. Through out that day I had done the five stages of grief and never even realized it till much later so I offer that little bit of wisdom till the next time I post.

Dreaming

   I had a dream last night. It was in places I've never been but it almost feels like I have known them my entire life. Does that sound crazy? Most likely but then again I have had different dreams in the same locations...

The Creation

The Locked Box

   We all keep things inside which no one knows about, are feelings, are emotions, are true personality's. These are the things we hold dear-are locked box.